I'll attempt to keep this blog post focussed - unlike my mind - in an attempt at therapy and use bullet pointsd.
Things I am overwhelmed about:
- How much emotional and moral support I need to get through this training
- How fast the weekend cyclists are compared to me
- Whether or not I will make the cut off time on the bike
- How much emotional and moral support I demand to get through this training
- Is my training getting in the way of my relationship with my step son?
- Why have I chosen to do Blackpool Half marathon?
- How much is training affecting my relationship
- When am I going to have time to fundraise?
- The logistics of the next three back to back weeks with Mallorca visit and half marathon race to balance, and a sportive.
- How much emotional and moral support I crave to get through this training
- What does Jon think about this?
- Is my training getting in the way of my friendships?
- Will I have a job after October?
- How can I worry about a stupid triathlon when great people have cancer and IDS is on the loose.
- Will I hit my fundraising target
- What if I don't make the fundraising target.
- What is my back up race?
- Will I use cleats and clip in pedals
- What will I wear on race day?
- How will I tackle the descents
- Will I make Jon proud? Will he show it? Will I think he shows it enough?
- Does anyone know how hard this is?
- Does anyone anyone know how hard this is for my puny unathletic body?
- Does anyone care?
- Does it matter if someone does care or not?
- I am so scared of failing.
- Why am I writing a blog post when I could be doing pilates or strength training?
- Why did I not do pilates or strength training today?
- Have I made enough to do lists and what is next on the to do list.
- Is it ok to be scared? Does anyone know how scared I am?
- Have I packed all my food to get through two training sessions in between work?
- When is the next rest day?
- Will I be able to run Blackpool Half on these feet? If not, will it matter?
- What is the point of cycling?
- What is the point.
I think you get the idea. And none of that was exaggerated for effect.
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